I Was Not Made To Give Up

I have been acting like such a weak and defeated person the past few months. My mind has been so consumed with thoughts of the future. I don't know what my next step is. I don't know how to live my own life and make my own decisions. Now that I am trying to walk my own path I just feel so uncertain and alone. I guess I am learning who I am. All this time I have not been living my true self. God has taken me through dark valley's to show me that He alone is the Light. He has taken me through some fires to show me that the only thing that can burn me is the very things that have had me bound. He has separated me from many people, now I stand alone, teaching me that there is a "friend that sticketh closer than a brother" (Proverbs 18:24). I posted a quote on my Facebook page that said "I have never met a strong person with an easy past." It reminded me that nothing that has any value comes easily. There is always some hard work involved. I guess I am a slow learner when it comes to my vision of what I think my life should look like. When things don't go the way I want them to I become very impatient. I wonder, what do you do when you feel like you are left empty? But that's the thing, that is my flesh talking. In my heart I know that I was not made to give up even when things don't go my way. God has made me to go through trials. He has made me to overcome! He has made me to praise Him in the midst of the good and the bad. He has made me to be His daughter. I have really low days when I lay in bed not wanting to face anything. I have days where I am fighting to hold back tears. There is a seed that God has planted in my heart that won’t let me give up. God pushes (gives me the strength) to keep marching forward. He reminds me that He will be the one to take care of the details of my life. It's an unnecessary burden that I carry on my shoulders when I should hand it over to God. I don't have the ability let alone the strength to carry things that I have no control over. This thought "I was not made to give up" came to me when I was in church learning about the prophet Jeremiah. I encourage you to read Jeremiah chapter 20. Jeremiah was being mocked and slapped for the word that God gave him. He was humiliated. He was tired of the way everyone treated him. He speaks out of anger in verse 9 saying, "Then I said, I will not make mention of him, nor speak any more in his name. But his word was in mine heart as a burning fire shut up in my bones, and I was weary with forbearing, and I could not stay." The point is that Jeremiah could not keep his vow of never mentioning God again or prophesying. He couldn't help himself. He was made to speak the Word of God not to give up. We all have our days and go through the same human emotions but the true child of God will never stay down. We were not made to give up. Remember that today and every day.